I'm not a fan of thanksgiving
Nov. 27th, 2008 08:42 amMostly because I'm so far from thankful for my father i'm on the ass island of island Hate His Living Guts.
last thanksgiving i got kicked out of the house for suggesting we not call someone on Craigslist about something we were selling on thanksgiving because it was a holiday and time for families to be together, not deal with craigslist. the year before i ended up having to pack all my stuff up in my car and was about to get kicked out before my mom talked him down. this yr i just had to rescue my laptop from getting hurled against a cedar wall because there is no place for my stuff. like my movies and cds, they just get taken from where the family stuff goes and dumped in my room. and my laptop was in the way of his cleaning.
so, thankful? not so much. more desperate to get out of here which i cant for the interim. not that i'm complaining, because i really have come to grips with this sad fact. that dwelling and getting angry over it doesnt do anything constructive. i just have to hang in there for a couple more yrs.
M was talking about how excited she is for thanksgiving and i have to saw it confounded me. i was just like "....why?" i wake up to yelling and a deep urge to tell my father he can go fuck himself.
that is all.
last thanksgiving i got kicked out of the house for suggesting we not call someone on Craigslist about something we were selling on thanksgiving because it was a holiday and time for families to be together, not deal with craigslist. the year before i ended up having to pack all my stuff up in my car and was about to get kicked out before my mom talked him down. this yr i just had to rescue my laptop from getting hurled against a cedar wall because there is no place for my stuff. like my movies and cds, they just get taken from where the family stuff goes and dumped in my room. and my laptop was in the way of his cleaning.
so, thankful? not so much. more desperate to get out of here which i cant for the interim. not that i'm complaining, because i really have come to grips with this sad fact. that dwelling and getting angry over it doesnt do anything constructive. i just have to hang in there for a couple more yrs.
M was talking about how excited she is for thanksgiving and i have to saw it confounded me. i was just like "....why?" i wake up to yelling and a deep urge to tell my father he can go fuck himself.
that is all.