this is why i dont like my parents... my da is now all pissed off at me because i told him i dont know how to hook up his GPA to the computer. and now he's all with the banging things around and yet, truth be told, my ability to hook stuff up and get them running? not so good. at all. it took me 4 hrs to do the dsl for crying out loud. plus, i've never worked his GPA (and its a big hunky complicated one believe me) in my life and yet he does practically every weekend so its like, why dont you do it you bastard.
*takes a deep breath* he asked mike but mike doesnt know and i'm just stunned that he's pissed i dont know how to work it when Mike doesnt even know how and Mike a)knows a hell of a lot more about hardware then i do and b) knows/uses the GPA in the first place.
heck, i screw up syncronising my palm pilot still.
and now he's all with the "fine, when theres something you need me to do i just wont do it." and i'm just so very very pissed. why the fuck doesnt he do it himself instead of coming down on me. he's been acting totally irrational lately and i'm absolutely at my wits end. he can be a real bastard and this isnt just my present feelings talking. he's the reason i'm not interested in dating because i see the shite my mum puts up with (and vise versa at times cause she's ditzy as all get out half the time) and i dont want to go there.
*sniffles* i need Britt to give me a hug but she's not even online.
I know i've said it before, how my sis is convinced you'll only be lonely if you live alone but from where i'm standing? even dead alone would be better then this *shivers* have to get away from these people.
And on the flip side Britt's not feeling all that emotionally stable either and it scares me sometimes. scares me the ideas that my head comes up with to....deal. scares me when i actually start to considering doing stuff i always swore i wouldnt when i was younger. but when i was younger the depression and the trapped feeling wrent so...oppressive. i could deal then with just pushing it aside but now....i just want to get out. away. i have to or these people are going to kill me. not literally but... *shivers*
*curls up in a little ball and goes to work on paper due tomorrow*
*takes a deep breath* he asked mike but mike doesnt know and i'm just stunned that he's pissed i dont know how to work it when Mike doesnt even know how and Mike a)knows a hell of a lot more about hardware then i do and b) knows/uses the GPA in the first place.
heck, i screw up syncronising my palm pilot still.
and now he's all with the "fine, when theres something you need me to do i just wont do it." and i'm just so very very pissed. why the fuck doesnt he do it himself instead of coming down on me. he's been acting totally irrational lately and i'm absolutely at my wits end. he can be a real bastard and this isnt just my present feelings talking. he's the reason i'm not interested in dating because i see the shite my mum puts up with (and vise versa at times cause she's ditzy as all get out half the time) and i dont want to go there.
*sniffles* i need Britt to give me a hug but she's not even online.
I know i've said it before, how my sis is convinced you'll only be lonely if you live alone but from where i'm standing? even dead alone would be better then this *shivers* have to get away from these people.
And on the flip side Britt's not feeling all that emotionally stable either and it scares me sometimes. scares me the ideas that my head comes up with to....deal. scares me when i actually start to considering doing stuff i always swore i wouldnt when i was younger. but when i was younger the depression and the trapped feeling wrent so...oppressive. i could deal then with just pushing it aside but now....i just want to get out. away. i have to or these people are going to kill me. not literally but... *shivers*
*curls up in a little ball and goes to work on paper due tomorrow*